So during last week I followed a new routine of exercise, monitoring my food which is already showing up some pretty major issues in the content of fibre and so many nutrients its ridiculous. I mean without actually eating unhealthy foods, I am eating unhealthy and affecting my body. It’s just mad how my IBS has pushed my body and my mind to cut out everything possible to ruin my view on food and being able to eat. I am flaking on some major life balances, and this is something I will be working on very closely when my stomach is playing up.
IBS has affected every part of my life however I am changing my outlook on life and everyday I try to take a new positive approach to the day, I get reminded by a good friend on a daily basis or when she can tell I’m struggling.
My week was going fabulous until I started to feel rough from Friday and it continued to get worse from there. Little one has gone through a tummy bug with sluggish and struggling so in turn I have been alongside her and my IBS has been through the ringer with the lack of sleep, neediness of her and with me not being very well myself either. The weekend was hard but with my partners help I managed to get some rest with him caring for her which makes life easier.
Today, was just the worst she has been feeling so much better however every time I eat, I get pain so I am not feeling so able. It has been hard to manage a toddler who is feeling better, has too much energy and is generally enough to drive the most calm person up the wall. It has been a matter of remembering to breathe, some unwanted anger, giving up with certain items of clothing (shoes and socks mostly) and just letting her play with the dog outside dressed in a dress only. We managed to get through the day with yogurt all over my living room including her kitchen toys, my rug and my sofa, getting her to eat issues, tantrums, constant sneaking snacking without permission and the words ‘mummy’ being overused so much I was going insane.
I follow an amazing lady on Instagram who puts the most wonderful and meaningful posts up regularly and one hit home for today, feeling so useless and like I am not anywhere near enough for her. Emma made the most poignant point about struggling and that you will eventually see this is as empowering and motivates you to get through everything life may through your way. I am finding that between a few wonderful accounts and some supportive friends, I am improving my outlook to ensure I am taking a more positive approach to everyday but boy, today has been a little tough leaving me losing the will to live.
IBS is not my friend on days like this, I mean it is never my friend but today it has made a tough day that much more tough to deal with. We all have these days and they test us but also we can learn from them and be better people and parents to our wonderful little monsters.
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Child under a rug, another of her activities today!
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